call to the world

this is my call to the world
hear me
hear my cries for help
because right now im alone
everyone is busy
everyone has problems of their own
so now im alone.
no on sits beside me
sorting through my head
telling me which ways forward
so i dont go backwards instead.
loniless has a way of eating you
pulling you deep inside of it
it being the thing your pulled into
it being simply named it.
this is my call to the world
hear me
hear my laughter
hear how layered my emotions are
hear my pain my suffering
hear my scars.
hear how deep everything goes
every word
every sound
every smile
every curse
hear how much you mean to me
hear my friends
my family
my self.
hear the wonders inside my body
that no one else can see
except for me.
and him.
but hes not my him anymore.
hes his.
so no one sees my wonders.
no one but me.
this is my call to the world.
hear me
see me
look closer
be closer
move closer
im lonely
im alone
whoever you are
i need you.
you.
not them.
if you hear my call.
then its your fate to help me.
this is my call to the world.

Hope Abrams

You know in new moon how she talks about a hole?
it's funny because i never really got it.
ive been numb
ive been sore
ive been hurt
ive been broken
but never before have i felt like this
like everytime i think of him im going to vomit
like the emotions rise up and constrict my thoat
like im allergic to even thinking about him
like i cant breath
so i clutch at my throat and steady my breathing
before putting it out of my mind and walking on
holding my belly as it gurgles in despair.
it's a cycle.
i know it.
i deal with it.
i dont stop it.
maybe it'll go away.
maybe not.
lets hope it does.

okay

are we okay?
are we going to be okay?
will it be okay?
will we be okay?
will everything be okay?
is this okay?
is everything okay?
are we okay?

Pink Ego Box - Muse

It's gonna be ok
I can’t afford another day
At 50 bytes per second

I’ve never seen your face
I’ve never heard your voice

But I think I like it
When you instant message me
With a promise
I can feel it
I can tell you're gonna be
Just like me

My eyes are gonna strained
My heart is feeling pain
At 50 beats per second

I’ve never seen your eyes
I’ve never heard your lies

But I think I like it
When you instant message me
With a promise
I can feel it
I can tell you're gonna be
Just like me
Just like me

You tell
You tell
You tell my name