heyhey
youll be glad to know im not as scared anymore
haha i kinda feel stupid. i mean i was terrified, i felt like i had betrayed him, and in one sentence he cleared it all up, all the confusion and fear all went away.
in this life i have learnt, well alot, but mainly that people are unpredictable, feelings and around about everything in this world is unpredictable. And maybe then we should tell everyone the truth, maybe then we should do whats right, maybe then we should say how we feel and hope that the person recieving your information will surprise you, they will be unpredictable. and if not then screw them. im sorry to say i havnt picked up any feathers, not that i have walked much, but still.
i hope you like these lyrics. Next time i think ill show you a few more of my poems.
niah xx
Welcome to my life- Simple Plan
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Running- Evermore
too many words
too many lies
i can't quite see the truth
when i look into your eyes
i feel I'm cured
and i know i should
step away turn around
let my feet hit the ground
...running, running, running, running...
you don't need a broken heart
to know one can be broken
you just need to open your eyes.. yeah
we don't need to be decieved
to know a lie can be spoken
we don't have to learn everything twice
I don't know
I really don't know
If this castle in the sand
is strong enough to stand
i feel I'm cured
and i know i should
step away turn around
Let my feet hit the ground
...running, running, running, running...
you don't need a broken heart
to know one can be broken
you just need to open your eyes.. yeah
we don't need to be decieved
to know a lie can be spoken
we don't have to learn everything twice
Coz i know
how it feels
all the pain
is so real
coz u sink
and you drown
till your feet hit the ground
...running, running, running, running...
coz you don't need a broken heart
to know a heart can be broken
you just need to open your eyes.. yeah
we don't need a tv show
to tell us which way to go
we just need to do what we know
woah woah woah
woah woah woah
woah woah woah
woah woah woah
Monday, June 29, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
icantthinkofanamesoimjustcallingitthis
ok so i havnt blogged in forever but i have taken the time out to write this all down on paper because i couldnt use my comp. see? i do care.
Well schools been a drag as usual, boring boring boring work work work and speaking of drags and work my job is starting to push my buttons. its cold, ok its freezing, its dark, windy and sometimes raining and i have to leave work in bathers and a towel and soaked through *shudder*. The kids are awesome though, well most of them are, there's always the odd exception, but, hey whos perfect? Not me, thats for sure. Well these couple of days i havnt been comp. bound i've had some time to think, to really think, and ive come to a conclusion. I'm scared. I'm terrified of going on msn. I cant face brandon. i mean i think about him ALL the time and i care for him sooo much but i dont love him and im scared. Don't get me wrong, i really like him, i like like him, but im only 14, im just a baby, im not in love. im just a kid. he always says 'i love you' and i say 'i love you too' but now i just feel like a liar so im hiding. He's been worrying so much about me and toni actually texted me today. TONI!!! its crazy-madness and im starting to worry about myself. ive never been normal, haha thats a bit out of my reach but now im scared of things like a computer and having strange-ass dreams. lol dreams are made up by the things you worry about and think about constantly, they are made up by your brain. i think i might just have brain damage, or maybe i just worry too much. im seriously scraping the barrel for ideas here. all the time i was away i had all these ideas and now im here they all seem stupid or embarrassing or totally boring. oh im reaading a really good book, well technically i was reading a really good book. its called tomorrow when the war began. Its in a series of 7 and i think the authors name is james marsden. i have all these quotes i wanted to put up but that fell under the totally boring catagory. OMG Michael Jackson died!! the poor thing. i feel so bad, ive always thought he was a creep, no offense to anybody, i think hes a great singer, its just that i never looked behind his face and now i feel bad, like i missed out, i hate regret, stupid feeling, i dont like it. Mind you i dont like a lot of things, most of which are feelings, but when i think about it, a lot of the things i like are feelings. well ive hit the bottom of the barrel.
thanks for reading
i appreciate it
niah xx
Well schools been a drag as usual, boring boring boring work work work and speaking of drags and work my job is starting to push my buttons. its cold, ok its freezing, its dark, windy and sometimes raining and i have to leave work in bathers and a towel and soaked through *shudder*. The kids are awesome though, well most of them are, there's always the odd exception, but, hey whos perfect? Not me, thats for sure. Well these couple of days i havnt been comp. bound i've had some time to think, to really think, and ive come to a conclusion. I'm scared. I'm terrified of going on msn. I cant face brandon. i mean i think about him ALL the time and i care for him sooo much but i dont love him and im scared. Don't get me wrong, i really like him, i like like him, but im only 14, im just a baby, im not in love. im just a kid. he always says 'i love you' and i say 'i love you too' but now i just feel like a liar so im hiding. He's been worrying so much about me and toni actually texted me today. TONI!!! its crazy-madness and im starting to worry about myself. ive never been normal, haha thats a bit out of my reach but now im scared of things like a computer and having strange-ass dreams. lol dreams are made up by the things you worry about and think about constantly, they are made up by your brain. i think i might just have brain damage, or maybe i just worry too much. im seriously scraping the barrel for ideas here. all the time i was away i had all these ideas and now im here they all seem stupid or embarrassing or totally boring. oh im reaading a really good book, well technically i was reading a really good book. its called tomorrow when the war began. Its in a series of 7 and i think the authors name is james marsden. i have all these quotes i wanted to put up but that fell under the totally boring catagory. OMG Michael Jackson died!! the poor thing. i feel so bad, ive always thought he was a creep, no offense to anybody, i think hes a great singer, its just that i never looked behind his face and now i feel bad, like i missed out, i hate regret, stupid feeling, i dont like it. Mind you i dont like a lot of things, most of which are feelings, but when i think about it, a lot of the things i like are feelings. well ive hit the bottom of the barrel.
thanks for reading
i appreciate it
niah xx
Saturday, June 20, 2009
expressions
it seems i have nothing much to say
so instead of not blogging ill just let other people show you how i feel
They tell you a good girl is quiet
And that you should never ask why
'Cause it only makes it harder to fit in
You should be happy, excited
Even if you're just invited
'Cause the winners need
Someone to clap for them
It's so hard, just waiting
In a line that never moves
It's time you started making
Your own rules
You gotta scream until
There's nothing left
With your last breath, say
Here I am, here I am
Make'em listen
'Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore, say
Here I am, here I am
Here I am, here I am
You only get one life to work it
So who care's if it's not perfect
Say, "it's close enough to perfect for me"
Why should you hide from the thunder
And the lightning that you're under
'Cause there ain't nobody else
You want to be
If how your living isn't working
There's one thing that'll help
You got to finally just stop searching
To find yourself
You gotta scream until
There's nothing left
With your last breath, say
Here I am, here I am
Make'em listen
'Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore, say
Here I am, here I am
Here I am, here I am
The world better make some room
Yeah, move over, over.
Cause you're coming through
Cause you're coming through
Perhaps love is like a resting place
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home
Perhaps love is like a window
Perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer
It wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself
and don't know what to do
The memory of love will see you through
O love to some is like a cloud
To some as strong as steel
For some a way of living
For some a way to feel
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
Some say they don't know
Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict full of pain
Like a fire when it's cold outside
A thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
Some say they don't know
Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict full of pain
Like a fire when it's cold outside
A thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you
No one on earth means more to me
Your painted pictures are the way that the world Should be
Don’t ever change it, I don’t wanna live in this World without you
Oh no
I can’t explain, I can’t define
What you do to me, but my senses are so alive
You tell your story and it’s all that I ever believe
Portraits and poetry are frozen forms of perfection
But they don’t live and breathe
When my heart’s in need they don’t answer me
You - ooo oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking inspiration
You - ooo oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
You make me love, you make me care
You give me freedom I don’t need when I know You’re there
My search is over I’ve got all of the riches that Money don’t buy, oh no
Your words are poetry and your face is more than Perfection
The way I watch you move it only goes to prove
In everything to do
You - oooh oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking inspiration
You - ooooh ooh you are, you’re a human work of art
You’re my mission
You’re my goal
Oooh you liberate my soul
There’s no illusion, that your touch is gold
Portraits and poetry are frozen forms of perfection
The way I watch you move it only goes to prove
In everything you do
You - oooh oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking new sensation
You - ooooh oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking inspiration
If roses are meant to be red
And violets to be blue
Why isn't my heart meant for you
My hands longing to touch you
But I can barely breathe
Starry eyes that make me melt
Right in front of me
Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I'll be found
This music's irresistible
Your voice makes my skin crawl
Innocent and pure
I guess you heard it all before
Mister Inaccessible
Will this ever change
One thing that remains the same
You're still a picture in a frame
Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I'll be found
I get lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
That's where I'll be found
Yeah yeah
I get lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
Am I the only one
Ooh
Crashing into walls,
Banging on your door,
So why'd you let me in?
Falling through the floor,
Diving in too deep,
Underneath your skin.
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
Am I too much for you?
'Cause you're too much for me,
Still wanna be corrupted.
Let's convince ourselves
it's all under control,
A stone that we can break,
But is this what we want?
'Cause might miss the hate,
I know it feels so good,
To make the same mistake (mistake, mistakes).
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
Am I too much for you?
'Cause you're too much for me,
Still wanna be corrupted.
Do you remember how it started?
The fairytale got twisted and decayed,
The innocence has all been broken,
How did we get this way?
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
Am I too much for you?
'Cause you're too much for me,
Still wanna be,
And I still wanna be corrupted.
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination . . .
Silently the senses abandon their defences . . .
Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendour . . .
Grasp it, sense it - tremulous and tender . . .
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light -
and listen to the music of the night . . .
Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!
Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live as you've never lived before . . .
Softly, deftly, music shall surround you . . .
Feel it, hear it, closing in around you . . .
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of the music of the night . . .
Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world!
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before!
Let your soul take you where you long to be!
Only then can you belong to me . . .
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin,
let your darker side give in
to the power of the music that I write -
the power of the music of the night . . .
You alone can make my song
take flight -help me make the music of the night . .
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old
The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine
Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x4]
Get up, get out, get away from these liars
'Cause they don't get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time
Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine
Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x8]
All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I never promised you a ray of light
I never promised there’d be sunshine every day
I’ll give you everything I have
The good the bad
Why do you put me on a pedestal?
I’m so up high that I can’t see the ground below
So help me down you’ve got it wrong
I don’t belong there
One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I, I just want to love you
Oh I, I just want to love you
I always said that I would make mistakes
I’m only human and that’s my saving grace
I’ll fall as hard as I try
So don’t be blinded
See me as I really am
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin
So pull me from that pedestal
I don’t belong there
One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I, I just want to love you
Oh I, I just want to love you
Like to think that you know me
But in your eyes
I am something above me
That's only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a, I wear a, I wear a Halo
One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I, I just want to love you
Oh I, I just want to love you
(I just wanna love you)
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
so instead of not blogging ill just let other people show you how i feel
They tell you a good girl is quiet
And that you should never ask why
'Cause it only makes it harder to fit in
You should be happy, excited
Even if you're just invited
'Cause the winners need
Someone to clap for them
It's so hard, just waiting
In a line that never moves
It's time you started making
Your own rules
You gotta scream until
There's nothing left
With your last breath, say
Here I am, here I am
Make'em listen
'Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore, say
Here I am, here I am
Here I am, here I am
You only get one life to work it
So who care's if it's not perfect
Say, "it's close enough to perfect for me"
Why should you hide from the thunder
And the lightning that you're under
'Cause there ain't nobody else
You want to be
If how your living isn't working
There's one thing that'll help
You got to finally just stop searching
To find yourself
You gotta scream until
There's nothing left
With your last breath, say
Here I am, here I am
Make'em listen
'Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore, say
Here I am, here I am
Here I am, here I am
The world better make some room
Yeah, move over, over.
Cause you're coming through
Cause you're coming through
Perhaps love is like a resting place
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home
Perhaps love is like a window
Perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer
It wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself
and don't know what to do
The memory of love will see you through
O love to some is like a cloud
To some as strong as steel
For some a way of living
For some a way to feel
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
Some say they don't know
Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict full of pain
Like a fire when it's cold outside
A thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
Some say they don't know
Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict full of pain
Like a fire when it's cold outside
A thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you
No one on earth means more to me
Your painted pictures are the way that the world Should be
Don’t ever change it, I don’t wanna live in this World without you
Oh no
I can’t explain, I can’t define
What you do to me, but my senses are so alive
You tell your story and it’s all that I ever believe
Portraits and poetry are frozen forms of perfection
But they don’t live and breathe
When my heart’s in need they don’t answer me
You - ooo oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking inspiration
You - ooo oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
You make me love, you make me care
You give me freedom I don’t need when I know You’re there
My search is over I’ve got all of the riches that Money don’t buy, oh no
Your words are poetry and your face is more than Perfection
The way I watch you move it only goes to prove
In everything to do
You - oooh oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking inspiration
You - ooooh ooh you are, you’re a human work of art
You’re my mission
You’re my goal
Oooh you liberate my soul
There’s no illusion, that your touch is gold
Portraits and poetry are frozen forms of perfection
The way I watch you move it only goes to prove
In everything you do
You - oooh oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking new sensation
You - ooooh oooh you are, you’re a human work of art
Walking, talking inspiration
If roses are meant to be red
And violets to be blue
Why isn't my heart meant for you
My hands longing to touch you
But I can barely breathe
Starry eyes that make me melt
Right in front of me
Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I'll be found
This music's irresistible
Your voice makes my skin crawl
Innocent and pure
I guess you heard it all before
Mister Inaccessible
Will this ever change
One thing that remains the same
You're still a picture in a frame
Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I'll be found
I get lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
That's where I'll be found
Yeah yeah
I get lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
Am I the only one
Ooh
Crashing into walls,
Banging on your door,
So why'd you let me in?
Falling through the floor,
Diving in too deep,
Underneath your skin.
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
Am I too much for you?
'Cause you're too much for me,
Still wanna be corrupted.
Let's convince ourselves
it's all under control,
A stone that we can break,
But is this what we want?
'Cause might miss the hate,
I know it feels so good,
To make the same mistake (mistake, mistakes).
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
Am I too much for you?
'Cause you're too much for me,
Still wanna be corrupted.
Do you remember how it started?
The fairytale got twisted and decayed,
The innocence has all been broken,
How did we get this way?
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
So good you got to abuse it,
So fast that sometimes you lose it,
It chews you up when you feed it,
but everyone needs to eat,
Am I too much for you?
'Cause you're too much for me,
Still wanna be,
And I still wanna be corrupted.
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination . . .
Silently the senses abandon their defences . . .
Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendour . . .
Grasp it, sense it - tremulous and tender . . .
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light -
and listen to the music of the night . . .
Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!
Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live as you've never lived before . . .
Softly, deftly, music shall surround you . . .
Feel it, hear it, closing in around you . . .
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of the music of the night . . .
Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world!
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before!
Let your soul take you where you long to be!
Only then can you belong to me . . .
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin,
let your darker side give in
to the power of the music that I write -
the power of the music of the night . . .
You alone can make my song
take flight -help me make the music of the night . .
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old
The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine
Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x4]
Get up, get out, get away from these liars
'Cause they don't get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time
Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine
Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x8]
All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I never promised you a ray of light
I never promised there’d be sunshine every day
I’ll give you everything I have
The good the bad
Why do you put me on a pedestal?
I’m so up high that I can’t see the ground below
So help me down you’ve got it wrong
I don’t belong there
One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I, I just want to love you
Oh I, I just want to love you
I always said that I would make mistakes
I’m only human and that’s my saving grace
I’ll fall as hard as I try
So don’t be blinded
See me as I really am
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin
So pull me from that pedestal
I don’t belong there
One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I, I just want to love you
Oh I, I just want to love you
Like to think that you know me
But in your eyes
I am something above me
That's only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a, I wear a, I wear a Halo
One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I, I just want to love you
Oh I, I just want to love you
(I just wanna love you)
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Heya Hey Hey Hey…Hey Hey Halo
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Life on the Sea
standing near the water, at the oceans shore,
mysterious and beautiful, the waves are its call.
coming in to greet you, guiding you in,
it makes you feel the water, is the way to win.
the land is safe and stable, the land is your home,
the land has its beauties, and you can face it alone.
if i went into the water, slipped into the blue,
i know that i would never go, unless i was with you.
We'd swim through the currents, floats through the breeze,
we'd pass all our troubles, pass them with ease.
we'd hold eachothers hands, whilst we slept in the waves,
and when we hit a beach, we would live in the caves.
you would be my roomie, my bestfriend, my mate,
you would be my darling, my fiance, my way to celebrate.
when we could swim no longer, when our bodies were old and frail,
we'd hold eachothers hands and eyes and to heaven we would sail.
life could never stop u from what we wanted to do,
we'd make sure death wouldnt stop us, from what we wanted too.
you'd still be my roomie, my bestfriend and my mate,
you'd still be my darling, my partner and together we'd still celebrate.
celebrate that good times, the laughter that we'd shared,
celebrate the hand holds, the loving and the care.
i'll celebrate the life that you made special for me,
and so it will be a wavey life, that i will choose to lead.
by niah
mysterious and beautiful, the waves are its call.
coming in to greet you, guiding you in,
it makes you feel the water, is the way to win.
the land is safe and stable, the land is your home,
the land has its beauties, and you can face it alone.
if i went into the water, slipped into the blue,
i know that i would never go, unless i was with you.
We'd swim through the currents, floats through the breeze,
we'd pass all our troubles, pass them with ease.
we'd hold eachothers hands, whilst we slept in the waves,
and when we hit a beach, we would live in the caves.
you would be my roomie, my bestfriend, my mate,
you would be my darling, my fiance, my way to celebrate.
when we could swim no longer, when our bodies were old and frail,
we'd hold eachothers hands and eyes and to heaven we would sail.
life could never stop u from what we wanted to do,
we'd make sure death wouldnt stop us, from what we wanted too.
you'd still be my roomie, my bestfriend and my mate,
you'd still be my darling, my partner and together we'd still celebrate.
celebrate that good times, the laughter that we'd shared,
celebrate the hand holds, the loving and the care.
i'll celebrate the life that you made special for me,
and so it will be a wavey life, that i will choose to lead.
by niah
Friday, June 12, 2009
Flying Pigs
on my computer i have two copies of that picture.
one is named PigsMightFly
the other is named WhenPigsFly
small difference but in meaning its a massive difference
the first is saying that pigs might fly, that maybe, just maybe, pigs could join the birds and be free and not turn into ham. That maybe, just maybe, pigs can lead there own life and not get killed because they are 'a threat'. A threat to whom? a threat to selfish humans. oh god im so going to become a vegan.
the other states that it will happen, that pigs will lead their own lives, that pigs can fly away from the slaughter we have created for them. of course they still will get killed but hopefully farmers would freak out if their pig sprouted wings. and even thought this is an extremely boring post i wanted to share it with you.
Are you going to fly?
or Might you fly?
think about it
The Needing of Hugs
ok
i cant do this anymore
i know its only been like 3 hours
but im seriously not coping
my eyes are always teary
i almost cry if people say goodbye to me
i almost cry if people say ANYTHING to me
i almost cry if people dont say anything to me
and soon im going to cry if people look at me
its so weird
this whole time ive been thinking
'its going to be so bad in november when we have to give the house up for auction' and i had acccepted that. i accepted that in NOVEMEBER we would deal with it. Maybe october or september or even august, not early june. Not now. i need now. then i can deal with, now is sacred. if it was then, then i could get my head around it, if it was then, then i could find ways to deal with it. but right now i dont need that obstacle any bigger, especially not IN-MY-FACE HUGE!! ive always been sensitive, ive always been able to cover up my emotions, ive always been the rock and had rocks of my own. now im a feather and rocks cant help me when im flying away in the storm. haha thats a pretty good analogy. im a feather. who cares about a feather flying on the breeze, much less a gale forced wind, they might pick up a feather on the side walk, but never on a free way, never a feather thats muddy or runover or ugly or retarted looking, or a normal feather that falls into the background. from now on im going to pick up as many feathers as i can when im walking. Maybe not in the middle of a freeway but ill do my bit. Because i know how much it would mean if someone picked me off the ground, if someone too kthe time out for an ugly muddy feather that falls into the background, or a feather flying with the wind in a storm. a harmless feather forced into something they dont want to do because its harmless and nobody cares if it falls in the mud and is never discovered again. Nobody cares if it dies. but guess what everybody? birds would die without them! birds would get caught by there predators and couldnt live in trees and their babies would die, or get stepped on and be quite ugly. They would die, without me a bird would die. and i know that mum gets angry when i bring home dead birs in my lunchbox but they deserve a funeral. i would want a funeral if i was them. Because they are animals humans treat them like they are second best, I treat them like they are second best! how can i do that to them? how can WE do that to them? man i feel so bad. to all the birds of the world, to all the animals of the world, IM SO SORRY
i cant do this anymore
i know its only been like 3 hours
but im seriously not coping
my eyes are always teary
i almost cry if people say goodbye to me
i almost cry if people say ANYTHING to me
i almost cry if people dont say anything to me
and soon im going to cry if people look at me
its so weird
this whole time ive been thinking
'its going to be so bad in november when we have to give the house up for auction' and i had acccepted that. i accepted that in NOVEMEBER we would deal with it. Maybe october or september or even august, not early june. Not now. i need now. then i can deal with, now is sacred. if it was then, then i could get my head around it, if it was then, then i could find ways to deal with it. but right now i dont need that obstacle any bigger, especially not IN-MY-FACE HUGE!! ive always been sensitive, ive always been able to cover up my emotions, ive always been the rock and had rocks of my own. now im a feather and rocks cant help me when im flying away in the storm. haha thats a pretty good analogy. im a feather. who cares about a feather flying on the breeze, much less a gale forced wind, they might pick up a feather on the side walk, but never on a free way, never a feather thats muddy or runover or ugly or retarted looking, or a normal feather that falls into the background. from now on im going to pick up as many feathers as i can when im walking. Maybe not in the middle of a freeway but ill do my bit. Because i know how much it would mean if someone picked me off the ground, if someone too kthe time out for an ugly muddy feather that falls into the background, or a feather flying with the wind in a storm. a harmless feather forced into something they dont want to do because its harmless and nobody cares if it falls in the mud and is never discovered again. Nobody cares if it dies. but guess what everybody? birds would die without them! birds would get caught by there predators and couldnt live in trees and their babies would die, or get stepped on and be quite ugly. They would die, without me a bird would die. and i know that mum gets angry when i bring home dead birs in my lunchbox but they deserve a funeral. i would want a funeral if i was them. Because they are animals humans treat them like they are second best, I treat them like they are second best! how can i do that to them? how can WE do that to them? man i feel so bad. to all the birds of the world, to all the animals of the world, IM SO SORRY
The Guide to Hiding in the Dark
there is two sides to every story, yours and theres, right and wrong, true and false, good and bad. in the bible we learnt that god made everything in pairs. Good and evil, light and dark, sun and moon, sky and land. But today im going to discuss good and bad, the good and bad of higing in the dark to be precise. Ok so when im sad i like to be alone, i hide, thats just what i do. today i learnt that we sold our house to these people from school, so i hid. in my room under my blankets. darkness was my only company, and i was thinking, darkness has two sides, good and bad, see dark can let you reveil yourself, dark can be your only friend when your friends are the ones who are making everything bad, dark can comfort you when you cry, dark can let you imagine, imagine everythings ok, that things didnt happen, that people didnt say this or do that, that people actually care and that you are safe, dark can make you feel like the world is yours if you can just reach out to grab it... but dark can also make you feel even more alone than before, can make you feel a million times worse, can make you remember everything that happened and make you so revielled that you feel you arent hiding anymore, dark can eat away at you, remind you, isolate you, make you feel cold, so on and so forth.
so there we have it, i dont know where to hide anymore, i feel naked, if i hide in the dark i dont feel safe anymore and if i hide in the light then where is the comfort dark creates? so im in a pickle.
stuck here wondering what to do.
because i know in the next couple of months,
im going to need some place to hide.
and im hoping i can just hide in someones arms,
but the chances are pretty slim.
niah
so there we have it, i dont know where to hide anymore, i feel naked, if i hide in the dark i dont feel safe anymore and if i hide in the light then where is the comfort dark creates? so im in a pickle.
stuck here wondering what to do.
because i know in the next couple of months,
im going to need some place to hide.
and im hoping i can just hide in someones arms,
but the chances are pretty slim.
niah
Monday, June 8, 2009
canniblism
ok so i went on holiday to phillip island
had an awesome time
sure there was some disputes
some arguments
some brawls
some yelling
but also there was some laughter
some smiles
some playing
some mini golf
some chatting
and some bonding.
so overall it was a pretty cool weekend
CODY TURNED FOUR
my relation ship with bran turned 2 months
and my relationship with the book im reading ended
in other words i finished it
and my book im writting started to grow again
im really quite proud
its looking better than i imagined
apart from the fact i just killed off an unborn baby
which was mean
oh i forgot
my topic is canniblism if the spelling is wrong im sorry
but the eating of your own species
a human to a human usually
but this weekend it was
fish to a fish
fishy to fishy
MY fish to MY fish
bubbles to petunia
mother to daughter
ok they werent really related but they LIVED together!
you dont just kill your room mates
well I dont kill MY room mates
not that i have any room mates but i wouldnt KILL them!
my little baby
i hope you rest in peace my darling
ill see you in heaven if i get there
and bubbles will have to live with a guilty conscience
that hell on earth enough for me
we actually he'll have a guilty conscience x3
my fish is a cannible everybody
so beware
and be scared
cannible fish are on the loose
well not on the loose
but in my fish tank
in melbourne
haha
i hope that sounded like i meant it
which it most likely didnt
but such is life
nothing ever works out the way you want
and nothing ever sounds the way you mean it
and ill leave it there before i bore you
but thats this weeks quote of the week everbody
byeee
niah xx
had an awesome time
sure there was some disputes
some arguments
some brawls
some yelling
but also there was some laughter
some smiles
some playing
some mini golf
some chatting
and some bonding.
so overall it was a pretty cool weekend
CODY TURNED FOUR
my relation ship with bran turned 2 months
and my relationship with the book im reading ended
in other words i finished it
and my book im writting started to grow again
im really quite proud
its looking better than i imagined
apart from the fact i just killed off an unborn baby
which was mean
oh i forgot
my topic is canniblism if the spelling is wrong im sorry
but the eating of your own species
a human to a human usually
but this weekend it was
fish to a fish
fishy to fishy
MY fish to MY fish
bubbles to petunia
mother to daughter
ok they werent really related but they LIVED together!
you dont just kill your room mates
well I dont kill MY room mates
not that i have any room mates but i wouldnt KILL them!
my little baby
i hope you rest in peace my darling
ill see you in heaven if i get there
and bubbles will have to live with a guilty conscience
that hell on earth enough for me
we actually he'll have a guilty conscience x3
my fish is a cannible everybody
so beware
and be scared
cannible fish are on the loose
well not on the loose
but in my fish tank
in melbourne
haha
i hope that sounded like i meant it
which it most likely didnt
but such is life
nothing ever works out the way you want
and nothing ever sounds the way you mean it
and ill leave it there before i bore you
but thats this weeks quote of the week everbody
SUCH IS LIFE
byeee
niah xx
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