Hope Abrams

You know in new moon how she talks about a hole?
it's funny because i never really got it.
ive been numb
ive been sore
ive been hurt
ive been broken
but never before have i felt like this
like everytime i think of him im going to vomit
like the emotions rise up and constrict my thoat
like im allergic to even thinking about him
like i cant breath
so i clutch at my throat and steady my breathing
before putting it out of my mind and walking on
holding my belly as it gurgles in despair.
it's a cycle.
i know it.
i deal with it.
i dont stop it.
maybe it'll go away.
maybe not.
lets hope it does.