24/02/09

ok,
today was disasterous,
i was sick,
yet i went to school,
i payed for that,
i couldnt look at anything white,
which included the computer screen,
good thing we have a flexible english teacher,
and all my friends kept calling me 'emo girl'
and i was like,
hey i dont slit my wrists or anything,
and all they said was 'yet.'
so thats what i am now
the emo depressed girl in 8B.
pretty sad.
Cleo was in a bitchy mood,
and was like,
i cant hang around you if your emo,
and i was like,
ok,
and walked off,
and she was like calling
you can be emo!
but i dont want permission
i am what i am because i want to be
thats that.
i feel like i asked to be this,
this idiot,
and cleo just confirmed that i was,
and it really hurt.
more than it would if anyone else did,
its weird,
coz her oppinion matters alot to me,
even though i wouldnt change for her,
id probably consider it,
which scares me.
but in english we are writting letters,
i know,
it sounds so kiddy,
but we can choose our subjects for them,
and that changes everything,
because we had control,
which ive noticed teens like,
i know i do.
well there is more i want to write,
but ill do it in other posts.
byeee