emotions

im like sooo emotionally unstable,
its weird as,
i mean,
i cry at anything,
basically everything,
and im depressed,
how do you tell your parents that?
"hey mum, im depressed."
it would be really weird,
then theyd like get you a counsilor,
i dont want one,
i rely on too many ppl,
its sad,
i dont want to rely on anyone,
i relied on my friend dan,
and i didnt talk to him for a week
or two and i got so depressed,
as i said before,
ppl called my emo girl,
haha
yeahhhh.
never been that bad,
im good at covering my feelings,
i just really didnt want to today,
so i didnt,
and ppl noticed.
biggest mistake EVER.
now my friend dan came on msn,
and i like went on the BIGGEST HAPPY EVER!
i was going to say high,
but that didnt cut the description.
its really not good.
but i love him.
he keeps me sane,
literally.
i dont think its healthy,
but what in this world is these days?
every foods procesed,
computers and tvs stop you from excersizing,
feeling skills people,
actually they do.
i dont want to die right now,
but i know,
that if i do,
i probably will just die.
kill myself maybe.
no point in being alive and miserable when i could be
dead and out of the pain.
except of course if heaven is real and
i had to see people die.
that would suck.
jeeez i sound like such an emo.
well
byeee