okay another belief
god is not human
god is not human shaped.
the bible stated that we were made in gods image.
load of bull dust
we say that because we think we are the superior race
we think we're better than all other animals
but how do we know?
we think that goldfish forget every 3 seconds
but how do they remember to be scared if we come near?
how do they remember what food looks like?
or that they need food?
this man did an experiment and everyday before he fed his fish
he put a red block in his fish tank and then fed them.
and after a while he put in the block and they all came to the top
so it got to a point where he would put in the block
they'd swim up and even if he didnt have food with him they came up
so you see?
fish are smart bubbies
dont underestimate the power of the mind.
lol
so god can be anything
any animal
any thing god wishes
haha
niah xx
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
my end
okay.
i have come to a conclusion.
i have been tossing up my beliefs for a while,
deciding what is fact,
what is fiction
and what is just a load of crap
to me.
TO ME
thats important.
whats a load of crap to me could be fact to another,
now im not here to tell people that what i say is the bible,
because derr of course its not.
but here is what i believe about death.
wel first here is what i don't believe.
reincarnation.
i want to
i want to come back
i want to believe that i will
but i dont
and heres why.
THE NIGHT IS FOR HUNTING - John marsden
Okay now for what i believe.
the light.
the light is love.
un-diluted love
the purest purest love there is
and it shines like the light of a million stars
and it guides you to peace
you follow it and you rest in peace
where you go, well
i don't believe you go anywhere
people say that you are looked down on
to me thats fiction
the dont look down
they look out
for you and of you
small parts of them live inside you
and they look out for you
and when you talk to them
they listen
but their soul is at peace
in the light that you made them.
and hell,
hell is here
on earth
where no one can see you
or talk to you
and because no one had any love to guide you
no one wants to see you
and you are alone
stuck in loneliness forever
just there
by yourself
floating
waiting
but for nothing
because nothing is coming
or going
or happening
you just watch
but there is no one that you could want to watch
because they dont love you
not enough to guide you
and if you watch them
there is nothing you can do
but watch
stuck inside your head
cant talk
cant live
just existing
never at peace
never at ease
alway just existing
stuck in a pit of troubles and despair and pain
no one loves you
no one misses you
no one cares for you
its like having LONER tattooed on your forhead
thats my hell
thats my heaven
and i know where i want to end up
and where id.....
i cant describe what it would be like
it makes me feel queezy
and sick
and just full on yuck.
bleh
vomit
yuck
and on that happy note
i say goodnight
:D
niah xx
i have come to a conclusion.
i have been tossing up my beliefs for a while,
deciding what is fact,
what is fiction
and what is just a load of crap
to me.
TO ME
thats important.
whats a load of crap to me could be fact to another,
now im not here to tell people that what i say is the bible,
because derr of course its not.
but here is what i believe about death.
wel first here is what i don't believe.
reincarnation.
i want to
i want to come back
i want to believe that i will
but i dont
and heres why.
I wanted to believe in stuff like reincarnation, but being on a farm makes it hard, because there's so much death. I couldn't quite believe that all those locusts and European wasps and mosquito wrigglers in the tank got reincarnated, and if they didn't, then why should people? What made us so special?
THE NIGHT IS FOR HUNTING - John marsden
Okay now for what i believe.
the light.
the light is love.
un-diluted love
the purest purest love there is
and it shines like the light of a million stars
and it guides you to peace
you follow it and you rest in peace
where you go, well
i don't believe you go anywhere
people say that you are looked down on
to me thats fiction
the dont look down
they look out
for you and of you
small parts of them live inside you
and they look out for you
and when you talk to them
they listen
but their soul is at peace
in the light that you made them.
and hell,
hell is here
on earth
where no one can see you
or talk to you
and because no one had any love to guide you
no one wants to see you
and you are alone
stuck in loneliness forever
just there
by yourself
floating
waiting
but for nothing
because nothing is coming
or going
or happening
you just watch
but there is no one that you could want to watch
because they dont love you
not enough to guide you
and if you watch them
there is nothing you can do
but watch
stuck inside your head
cant talk
cant live
just existing
never at peace
never at ease
alway just existing
stuck in a pit of troubles and despair and pain
no one loves you
no one misses you
no one cares for you
its like having LONER tattooed on your forhead
thats my hell
thats my heaven
and i know where i want to end up
and where id.....
i cant describe what it would be like
it makes me feel queezy
and sick
and just full on yuck.
bleh
vomit
yuck
and on that happy note
i say goodnight
:D
niah xx
Friday, August 14, 2009
Endless Road
man i have like 700 depressed friends right now
its so gay
its like bloody hell
why cant people just be happy?
why cant i be happy?
is it against some law of nature?
lol
apparently so.
once again i post this quote.
She wanted to fall in love this summer, thinking that love was just some other form of entertaining fun, like scuba diving or sunbathing. Another cool thing to do at the beach. but it wasn't. It was dangerous. Without love you couldn't have pain. Without love you couldn't have loss. Grief. Emptiness. Love made it all possible.
stupid stupid stupid love.
its all love's fault.
i hate it
and i want to squish it into pulp
but then i think about the people that i love
and i want to milk it for all its worth.
but that's another reason to hate it.
I'm all mixed up feelings about it.
i hate being confused.
its like KILL ME NOW!
well not literally but i hate it.
same with boredom.
curse the filthy disease boredom.
oh and loneliness don't forget that one.
but i also love that word lonesome.
lol
don't you reckon its just an aweosme word?
lol im being kicked off
love you guys
The truth is tearing up my heart
I can’t recognise this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can’t even find a stranger this time
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there’s nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will
A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there’s nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there’s nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will
I never will
-Endless Road, JJ Lin.
thanks for reading
niah xx
its so gay
its like bloody hell
why cant people just be happy?
why cant i be happy?
is it against some law of nature?
lol
apparently so.
once again i post this quote.
She wanted to fall in love this summer, thinking that love was just some other form of entertaining fun, like scuba diving or sunbathing. Another cool thing to do at the beach. but it wasn't. It was dangerous. Without love you couldn't have pain. Without love you couldn't have loss. Grief. Emptiness. Love made it all possible.
stupid stupid stupid love.
its all love's fault.
i hate it
and i want to squish it into pulp
but then i think about the people that i love
and i want to milk it for all its worth.
but that's another reason to hate it.
I'm all mixed up feelings about it.
i hate being confused.
its like KILL ME NOW!
well not literally but i hate it.
same with boredom.
curse the filthy disease boredom.
oh and loneliness don't forget that one.
but i also love that word lonesome.
lol
don't you reckon its just an aweosme word?
lol im being kicked off
love you guys
The truth is tearing up my heart
I can’t recognise this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can’t even find a stranger this time
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there’s nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will
A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there’s nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there’s nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will
I never will
-Endless Road, JJ Lin.
thanks for reading
niah xx
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
always smiley
well jay and Chris broke up
you guys all know jay right?
always smiley,
always laughing
always having something funny to say
apparently is was all a mask.
its kinda funny though because i just gave her this poem:
the mask that i wear.
the mask that i wear is always there
its pretense never ends,
i have to wear it all the time with my family and friends,
the mask i wear is always there,
i can not take it off,
without it I'm no butterfly,
i have to be a moth.
the mask i wear is always there,
a crutch and a disguise,
until the day i face the world,
until the day i fly.
I'm a bit if-y on the word pretense but you know
i gave it away
there's nothing to look at
loll
that's my best guess.
anyways they broke up.
he didn't turn up to her bday party because he had a hangover
he also was supposed to buy the present and that was for like half the party members. so no only was he slack but he didn't even call or anything.
hellooooo hes her bf
he was a responsibility, well he has a role to fill.
he was expected to at least call.
anyways jays real upset
apparently shes not all happy dappy jay that we know
i always thought she like didnt know pain ect ect
but now i think she totally does know and hides it
id write more but its late i cant think properly
lol
ill write again soon
thanks for reading
niah xx
you guys all know jay right?
always smiley,
always laughing
always having something funny to say
apparently is was all a mask.
its kinda funny though because i just gave her this poem:
the mask that i wear.
the mask that i wear is always there
its pretense never ends,
i have to wear it all the time with my family and friends,
the mask i wear is always there,
i can not take it off,
without it I'm no butterfly,
i have to be a moth.
the mask i wear is always there,
a crutch and a disguise,
until the day i face the world,
until the day i fly.
I'm a bit if-y on the word pretense but you know
i gave it away
there's nothing to look at
loll
that's my best guess.
anyways they broke up.
he didn't turn up to her bday party because he had a hangover
he also was supposed to buy the present and that was for like half the party members. so no only was he slack but he didn't even call or anything.
hellooooo hes her bf
he was a responsibility, well he has a role to fill.
he was expected to at least call.
anyways jays real upset
apparently shes not all happy dappy jay that we know
i always thought she like didnt know pain ect ect
but now i think she totally does know and hides it
id write more but its late i cant think properly
lol
ill write again soon
thanks for reading
niah xx
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